Here’s a video I found in the vault (my old, barely-breathing laptop) from my days in Singapore. Probably the best fireworks show I’ve seen up close. I really do miss this place, and I’m glad I was able to recover some footage.
So today is the last day of 2014, and I thought I would update you on the great things that happened in my life this year.
2. I helped make a viral video! Never thought it would get as big as it did but I’m really glad it did. Thanks to the internet we raised $20,000 for a really good man. Watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGo7KfCUGoc
3. I made amazing new friends! I have to be honest, I thought making new friends in the big city would be hard after school, but it is possible!
4. I travelled to Montreal, Philadelphia, Killington VT and Portland OR! Ate good food, ate more good food, went skiing and I went snowshoeing for the first time. Respectively. All amazing places I recommend you visit.
5. I sat across from Neil Degrasse Tyson on the C train. Yes an important life event. No I don’t have pictures because I wanted to respect his privacy. You’ll just have to trust me on this one.
I’m sure I’m forgetting some things, but these are the big ones. No matter how bad things have been in the news, I like to reflect on the things I am grateful for because I honestly never thought I would be where I am today. I have so many good people to thank for their generosity and putting up with me because it made me into the person I am today. I would also like to thank the academy. And God. *Walks off stage.*
Since I didn’t make any resolutions last year, I decided to go all out this year.
1. Shop small businesses. After Cash Mob for Avi, I realized how much small businesses rely on every single customer, so I am actively avoiding the big guys and shopping small.
2. Making lunch at home. I spend a lot of money buying lunch and it would just be cheaper, and healthier, to start making lunch for myself.
3. Catch up with old friends. I am really, really bad at keeping in touch. If you’ve known me and I haven’t spoken to you in years, it’s not you it’s me. 2015 I’m going to try and catch up with people because I have met so many amazing people in my life.
That’s all folks. See you next year!
So as you can see I’m really bad at blogging. I tried the content calendar, I tried jazzing things up with photos, I tried pouring my heart out and it didn’t work. I only just recently figured out why.
I just got back from a staff retreat where we were asked the question “What Drives You?”. The answer was clear to me, but every time I tried to vocalize it, I would run out of breath and my throat would close up.
I never had a fear of public speaking. I was student body president in grade school, public speaking in college was an easy A. I even acted in every play I could get my hands on, and was the leading role my senior year of high school.
Which leads me to the answer. It was always an act. I was aways representing a persona or a cause, but never had to reveal my true self. One word answers have always been my response to how I was doing. I could never talk to anyone about my personal life however uneventful and undramatic it has been so far.
Therapists hate her!
Which brings me back to why I suck at blogging. I just hate talking about myself in general. In this moment, as my fingers strike the keys, I am cringing. I could never keep a diary for more than a week. It doesn’t matter if I have an audience of none, it’s just hard.
I do see some irony or hypocrisy in it since I love hearing other peoples stories. I love just listening, even if I don’t have all the answers. It was my answer to what drives me. I honestly think that without the stories we tell, we would be nothing.
SO ALL THIS MEANS I’m going to try blogging again. I figure if I can’t say it in words, I can try to say it in ink, or pixels, and then maybe I will be more in tune with who I am and all that mushy stuff.
Well what makes this different Kat?
I don’t know condescending voice in my head. I guess because I’m blogging for me instead of the world. It’s all for my own selfish purpose. I’m not trying to get more traffic to my website by posting things they would like, I’m just making an honest reflection of who I am and if people want to tune in thats fine. This is the space for me to talk about my life, whether I am sitting in bed binge watching Netflix or climbing the Great Wall of China. It’s my website and I can do what I want.
Woah. So let me start this off by saying I have never finished a book so fast in my life. I finished it in a few hours– I literally couldn’t put it down. I think what really drew me into this book was they way it was written. The book is a compilation of letters written by the main character Charlie. He speaks directly to you, and brings you into the story. These letters describe his first year in High School and the struggles that come with it as well as memories of his Aunt and best friend.
This story really hit close to home and at times I was left with a lump in my throat. You easily become so attached to the characters and I was so eager to know what ill happen next. It at first seems like such a simplistic high school novel, but it has so much depth to it.
The most important message I took away from this book is to not compare yourself with others. It is a recurring theme through the book and I think this quote pretty much sums it all up:
“I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.”
This is such an important lesson that I wish I was raised with and that more people realized to be true. Growing up I always compared my struggles to what other people were going through, and believed that I didn’t have the right to get upset or complain or cry because other people have it much worse. I think this book helped me realize that we have to be focused on our own lives and well being and to “really be there”. And I’ll leave this review with one last quote that I really enjoyed:
“I would die for you, but I won’t live for you.”
After many attempts at getting the webpage to load, I finally registered for the Five Boro Bike Tour! It has been a really long time since I last did one, and now that I’m home from college I can’t wait to get back into them.
I’m trying to figure out if I can somehow sneak an action cam on my helmet for it. The thing I love most about the bike tour is that the city is yours. I saw parts of the city I wouldn’t normally go to and some of the views were great. It’s also pretty cool for the highways to be shut down. Sounds like a fun project is coming my way.
In other news I did my first voice overs at work today! When I was in grade school I had this crazy dream of one day becoming a voice actress. I loved acting and really wanted to pursue it, but I hated how I looked in front of a camera and on stage so I thought voice acting would be the place for me. Never got any further than that, but I just got a little taste of it with this project I’m doing for work. Nothing fancy, just FAQ videos on how to use our site, but I’ll be sure to link you to it so you can listen to my smooth velvety instructions on how to edit your email preferences.
OK, so call me crazy for doing a book review of a book that not only turned into a movie that won five Oscars, but also came out in the 60s and was on a lot of people’s reading lists in school. Hey, it is what I am reading and you’ll have to bear with me, I promise I wont spoil anything for you.
So before going on LSD fueled escapades with other notable authors, this guy Ken Kesey took a job with a mental hospital where he got the inspiration for One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s nest. After that came the running from the law and drugs and stuff. So I think he knows what he’s doing when it comes to mental hospitals in the 60s and themes of challenging authority.
So first off, the story is told through the eyes of Chief Bromden who is at a mental hospital where everyone thinks he is mute and deaf. This gives him advantages over the other patients like sitting in on staff meetings letting us know exactly what is going on in the hospital.
In like a hurricane comes McMurphy, who was supposed to be working at a prison farm but was diagnosed with psychopathy for well, doing things, and sees the hospital as a paradise compared to work on the farm. Until he comes head to head with Nurse Ratched, head nurse at the hospital. Nurse Ratched has all the patients and staff around her finger until McMurphy shows up who wants to wage war in the ward for power in the eyes of the patients.
This book is, as expected, different from the movie which gives you more of a reason to read it. You become so involved with the characters that you are instantly glued to the pages. By the end you’ll be questioning who really belongs in the mental institution. Although this came out in the 60s, it’s themes are timeless.
Verdict: READ IT!
I thought I might update you guys on what’s new in my life. Currently I am living with my mom in Bed Stuy, Brooklyn.
I am doing an internship with idealist.org, a job board for nonprofit organizations that also lets you find internships, volunteer opportunities, events and more. (Yes I found my internship with Idealist on Idealist.) My official title is a “Video Production Intern”. Basically I do everything from organizing and logging videos to shooting, editing, and creating motion graphics, which is exactly what I want to do. My internship was originally supposed to end before Christmas, but they loved me so much they decided to keep me on until March. (I wasn’t emotionally ready to leave them anyway.) In the meantime I am currently looking for a job. During my internship with Idealist I learned that I really love nonprofits so I am currently looking for work in the nonprofit sector. (Yes I am searching on Idealist.)
After this internship, I definitely consider myself more of a videographer than a photographer. More specifically, I see myself doing web video. On the side I hope to do some short form documentary work, but it all depends on if I have the time.
As for grad school the answer is no. Well not anytime soon anyway. Yes I want to further my education, but I still have some soul searching to do before I make a decision as to what I want to study. I don’t want to dish out another couple thousand before I know what I really want. To aid my decisions I’ve been taking some online classes. Currently I am taking CS50: Intro to Computer Science at Harvard University. It’ll probably kick my butt, but I have to try.
As for traveling, I hope to do at least one trip out of the country before the end of the year but it all depends on what jobs pull through. Currently I am looking at South America for my next adventure but we will see what happens. I do need to whip out my backpack some point soon since its gathering dust. Any suggestions?